The Little Whiles

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Jun
20

The firefly has disappeared.


I’m thinking I should write a post about how cold it is, because it really is freezing here tonight. And that gorgeous Kate sent me the most beautiful spools of ribbon, red with white polkadots and it made me say “Oh” out loud when I opened the little noodle box she sent them in. I could talk about Luca’s puppet show at school today – it was the cutest thing and he was the narrator..

But what I’m really thinking about is how today, and yesterday, have been very difficult days. I know they don’t go on like that and tomorrow might be much more bearable but for now I’m just drowning in missing and sadness. It seems as though we’re finding it harder by the day to believe Ava is not here and to try and understand how we lost her. On such a normal day. Doing such normal things. How could that happen? It feels as though it will never make sense and that it is so wrong and that we will never know what true happiness feels like again.
There is so much that goes with life after losing a child that you don’t realise. The fear in knowing that even though we truly adored Ava and put in place so many things to keep our kids safe, we still lost her. Knowing that fate can and does step in and is indiscrimate and, at times, so very unfair. That just because we have had more anguish and heartache than we’re sometimes able to bear doesn’t mean we won’t have any more for the rest of our lives. The panic we experience each time the school rings or when one of the kids doesn’t answer the first time we call out to them. We live with the constant fear that “normal” days can turn into nightmares. It really is a different World we walk in.
Crayton says that some moments are particularly hard because Ava is walking beside us at those times. I think, because I went to a puppet show, and because I was playing with pretty ribbon and seeing as it was extra cold, she must have been snuggled in my lap today.
xxxxx

Tucked Away Under // Ava

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Jun
18

Keira and Craig get married!!!

And what a beautiful, beautiful day it was. The setting was breath-taking, the detail amazing..and what a bonus to have stunning subjects to work with! Keira and Craig, thankyou for letting me share an amazing day…you are a truly beautiful couple.

This is Keira getting ready – since when do brides look this relaxed? I just love the sheer joy!

Tucked Away Under // Family

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Jun
16

My first foto-rage incident.

Don’t let the doll like appearance fool you.

Ivy is starting to show her personality, and I’m afraid it’s not looking pretty. I know this because while I attempted to snap her yesterday, she displayed her disapproval by picking up a metal truck and hurling it at my camera. My first reaction was to move the camera out of harms way but that meant the truck caught me fair in the face. I’m not sure if her outrage was due to the photos or the bonnet but I’ll approaching future photo shoots with extreme caution, and head gear.

Sheye x

Tucked Away Under // Family

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Jun
16

Things, Lovely Things.

I love to imagine one day I’ll have a totally zen house. Devoid of kidstuff, clutter and paperwork.. A few bits of uber stylish furniture, white of course, and not a lot else.
The reality is that I live amongst all manner of shades of practical taupe, beige, chocolate and espresso, apart from the Lego decorations which are multi colour of course, and just indulge in an all white bedroom.
Having said all that, when it comes to the kids rooms, I aim for total carnivale! Ivy’s room is candy pink, orange, blue and green!  I love collecting little unusual things for her..babushka dolls are a favourite, as are those teeny suitcases.


Each night she says goodnight to the tin people you see here..we call them her “friends” and she gives them a kiss and a wave.

So there you go…a peek into Ivy’s bookcase. I’m quite sure I’ve never posted so many pictures of non moving objects :p

Tucked Away Under // Family, Pretty Pretty Things

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Jun
11

I have the decorating bug.

I’m so excited! I’ve been working on my new site which includes gorgeous illustrations by Mandy Sutcliffe from Belle & Boo so have decided to pretty up my blog, with Mandy’s permission of course, and include one here. Mandy is an amazing artist – she’s doing five commissions of Ava for me and I’ll be really sad when she finishes – she’s just been so beautiful to work with. I chose photos that were really special to us and to see them illustrated by Mandy took my breath away.

Check out Mandy’s Etsy shop where she sells gorgeous originals and prints and other sweet things.

Tucked Away Under // Family, Pretty Pretty Things

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