At 3am today I woke to a stampede of boys in my room, shreiking “MUMMMMMM. SANTA LEFT A TRAMPOLINE IN THE GARDEN”. Yes, 3am. All of my efforts to unveil the biggest gift this Xmas at the “right” moment, with Grandparents present at a civilised time of the day, had failed. For the next two hours I had constant visits from them, asking if it was time to go and try it out yet. At 5am, crazy with sleep deprivation, I gave in. There I was, in half daylight, hissing at them to jump silently so as to not wake the neighbours. As Nanny said “You can jump as long as there’s no glee, okay.”
My boys do this to me every year..for both Easter and Xmas. It is horrendous. We dread it. I’ve found them before in the middle of the night scoffing Easter Eggs. I’ve never woken on a Xmas morning with the sun up. So it’s not even dinnertime and half the family are asleep trying to become human again.
Can I just say though, I feel a bit proud of myself for actually getting them a trampoline. 2 years ago, we had one ready to deliver for Xmas and I cancelled it the day before. I was just too terrified of all the “what if’s” and I’d googled myself into a paranoid frenzy. I am still a bit unsure but then I am a lot unsure every single day about so many things…I’m trying so hard to accept I cannot control everything and to make sure they’re still allowed to be kids. Anyway, I sold a kidney to fund the very best I could find, a Jump Safe one, so here’s hoping it’s not something I live to regret. So far, they absolutely love it.
Ivy, discovering a tree decoration featuring a picture of Mason.

And Ava, Xmas last year.


I should have some more pics a bit later, depending on how long they all nap!