A friend sent me the link to your beautiful site because I had a similar experience with my six year old Dulcie, when she was three. I was so touched by your words and images that I blogged about my experience right away. There is a huge difference in our stories though, I found Dulcie in time and will be forever grateful. I’ve locked my memories of that experience away because it was painful to talk about but I realise there is a more painful place to be and I don’t want to be silent anymore. Thank you.

sheye i know how you feel because my big sister was taken away. she was 3 months
old and now she 13 it has been so long i cry every day and night i loved her love Ena and meli

I call my life after losing twin boys my “new normal.” It makes me a better mother to my daughter for sure and a better person in general, but the loss is always right at the surface. I find your words so true and beautiful. <3

I just found your blog and read about your beautiful daughter, Ava. In the mean time my 2 year old daughter, Lennon, walks up to me, looks at the computer screen at a photo of Ava and says “pretty princess”. Little angels recognize other little angels.

You have said it all for all us angel mom’s out there Sheye. Thank you.

As someone else here said… your words take my breath away. I’ve had similar loss but tomorrow for me is 17 years 3/16/93 and as you said it doesnt go away, you just get used to it and there are times that I take the pain out and feel it and then put it safely away in my heart. I’ve read your story many times and never leave without prayer for little Ava and some tears of my own. I grieve for you, for her, for her sister and brothers and Daddy, and I know in my heart that you will all be together again one day. My heart still aches for you as I have felt all these feelings many times and fear is the closest to grief there is. You’re right! God said 365 times in his book “Do NOT FEAR” and yet its so hard. I pray for you and your family
Kym

I lost my 18 month old son last week and a friend passed your blog onto me – it gives me hope that I will get through these very very dark, meaningless and empty days of this other world we are now experiencing. thank you for sharing your grief with us.

I would like to add to Sheye, that I give you so much credit for your strength. I know exactly how you feel. Nobody knows the emptiness you feel after you lose a child. It feels like someone has ripped out your HEART, beet on it and put it back. In July, it will be 3 yrs for me. I think of Zach when I wake up for all of these days since he passed, and hundreds more times until I close my eyes. I used to be afraid of the thought of dying, but not so anymore. There has been times I didn’t think I would make through another day, but something helps you to hold on. I want to give you my Deepest Sympathy, You had such a Beautiful daughter. I only can pray our beautiful children are in a better place. I would hear of others in the past that lost their child, and you feel bad, but nobody really knows until it happens to you. A piece of you is gone. God Bless you…Your story is so powerful. It was hard to read, but a big help. Thanks, Joy

This message was so touching. I also lost my child on 7/1/07. His name was Zachary. He was 18, just graduated and was gone 1 week later. He was killed on his dirt bike.He was a great kid, my 1st and only son. I have a daughter left that is now 18, and she is so beautiful, but has to grow up an only child. A friend of mine sent me this post and it it so brought me to tears again. You live in a BAD dream when you loose a child. It all never seems real. In my case, my whole life fell apart after we lost our beloved son. Zach had many friends that were and still are so supportive. He would have been 21 on 3/19/2010. We are going to have him a birthday party at what I call Zach’s place. I know he is now an Angel in Heaven and for some reason, NOBODY, can tell me why? Why did this have to happen to this very talented young man and leave his family in ruins. I look forward to seeing my baby again, and there is NOTHING worse than losing a child!!!!

Gosh, you are a beautiful soul. “I need the tears,” so profound and beautiful.