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Soar.

Ava loved being in her angel wings. She wore them with her best dresses, she wore them with nothing. They made an appearance on most days until they became tired and tatty and Mason did what Mason does and broke them. I remember the tears that followed and me dutifully going to buy her another pair.

I was telling Tegan a story today over email..how one night I could hear Ava in the room next door thudding around and getting very cranky over something. It continued for a while so I went in and saw her standing in the middle of the coffee table, frown firmly plastered. I asked “Ava, what’s wrong?” to which she replied, frustrated, “Mum, I just can’t do it”. So, asking what “it” was, she then replied “I just can’t fly”.

I once posted here some images of her jumping on the lounge and told how when I said “Ava, stop jumping”, she replied with “I’m not jumping Mummy, I’m flying”. My post ended with the words “Soar, sweet child, soar”. As we released balloons the day of her funeral and stood watching them fade away, I spoke the same words.

These images were taken 14 days before she left. I wandered past and saw her standing on a chair, just staring out the window. She wasnt’ saying anything, there was really nothing to look at from there, but she appeared so thoughtful, and beauty full, in her wings and tiara. I actually went and got the camera and Crayton to come and see her – there was such serenity in her at that moment. I could only get a couple before she saw me and the moment was gone. I’m so glad I captured it.

I miss my girl today. I miss her every single day but yesterday has passed and all I can think is today, I miss her more. And it will be the same tomorrow. It just is.

S xx

1. Vanessa Tuau says:

   I bought my very first dSLR too!!! Very, very excited:)

   
2. snapshotsonlife says:

   What precious photos. Ava truly is beauty full – she is soaring above you, keeping watch.

   
3. Sarah says:

   My heart breaks for you. She is the angel in the photo. She can fly.

   
4. Beautiful Moments Photography says:

   Words escape me, she looks so angelic in those photos. xx

   
5. heather lynne says:

   My daughter, upon seeing these pictures:
   “Oooo, she has a tiara! She’s beauty full!”
   (She really pronouced it beauty full… just like you write.)