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Hollow {Another Day Less Ordinary}

I’ve sat here for too many minutes today.. trying to think up something sweet and interesting and beautiful to write about my children. To explain why I love being their Mum. To share what makes them amazing. To tell stories about their lovely gifts and their excitement and their cuddles. To believe it is all okay. Except it isn’t very okay at all.

It’s Mothers Day and one of my babies is missing and my heart hurts and my eyes are puffy and I still have to smile and swoon and hug like nothing is wrong when everything is. I’m bitter and I’m jealous and I’m sad and I’m tired. I just miss her so much.
Mothers Day, 2006

1. Katrina says:

   Sheye

   Be bitter, jealous, sad and tired.. you’re human!

   How dare god take back one of his angels!

   
2. E and T says:

   Dear Sheye

   You were not far from my thoughts and in my prayers on mother’s day.
   If only those thoughts and prayers could provide you a little comfort.

   Love and hugs to you
   Elise.

   
3. Anonymous says:

   Sheye, I just discovered your blog wanted to send a hug across the miles from another hurting mother. We lost our twin baby girls much too soon and I know what it is like to have your world turned upside down. Wishing you peace on this day.
   Danielle

   
4. The Silly Wagon says:

   I was feeling sorry for myself and then I realized that I need to stop for a moment and count blessings. Thank you for this bittersweet reminder. But far more important than that, know that there are strangers and friends around the world who would hug you and console you, gossip and regale you if only for one moment you could be happy. I hope you felt the warm hearts caring after you yesterday.
   xoxo
   Whitney

   
5. Sue says:

   Oh Sheye ,

   Mothers Day was very hard for me too, but I remembered alot of your courage under fire , and took strength from that . I didnt lose a child , but my little sister who died in my arms in January and left me HER daughter .My hurt is completely different from yours but your words really help me and my mother thru the process …….just wanted to send you big hugs from NYC and let you know we think of you and darling Ava every day …esp when we see pink ! Im really not sure how to sign my blog onto this so if it doesnt pop up its wwwDOTsuemonsterDOTtypepadDOTcom.

   Sue

   
6. Alpana says:

   Big hugs, Sheye. Your sweetie won’t be forgotten.

   
7. Pink Lemonade Boutique Bags says:

   Mommy hugs being sent your way!

   Caroline

   
8. D says:

   Sheye – I have been “silently” reading your blog for some time now finally decided to leave a comment. I cannot imagine what you must feel in your heart and I am so very sorry for your loss. Ava was the most beautiful little girl – how lucky you are to be blessed with three other healthy and happy children! I swear I have NEVER seen more beautiful children! Your pictures are simply stunning. Bless you for sharing your story with us all – You serve as a reminder to us all to not sweat the small stuff and take every little moment and treasure it greatly. Thoughts and prayers are coming your way from the good old US of A – Darcie

   
9. Sylvia says:

   I thought of you on Sunday morning and cried a tear for you.
   Lots of love,
   Sylvia