A Little Bit of Missing.
I’m suprised that I’m still okay with being here, that I haven’t had any major breakdowns about leaving the Coast, yet. I generally try not to think about the things I’ve left behind, I fear I’d fall in a heap if I let myself but there is something.. I’m finding that I’m missing kindy. Not just because I have a house full of children with cabin fever due to the constant drizzle – it’s more than that.
I miss how much the staff loved our kids..even before February.
I miss walking Ivy up the ramp into the centre – it would always remind me of Ava doing the same and let me “see” her for a moment.
I miss driving past and trying to see how much Ava’s gardenia’s had grown. “Missa Jema” planted them into a heart in the garden where Ava played each afternoon.
I just miss that part of Ava’s life not being part of ours now.
I will never forget Miss Lisa ringing me at the hospital that Sunday morning…having to explain what had happened…One day I’m talking to her about kindy lunch and the next…well..It was just a horrendous moment in the nightmare of those two days. It felt like breaking news to a family member.
Since that day, we have been so lucky to have had such support from the kindy community in so many forms. One of the most special things done for us this year was the creation of Ava’s memorial seat. It really is the most gorgeous bench, one of Superprincess standards. When it was installed, the centre held a beautiful service, full of reflection and peace..a day I will always cherish.
Here is a snap of the bench, it doesn’t remotely do it justice. I regret not taking more time to capture it properly but I will visit it often, I’m sure. The amazing background you see was painted by a very talented Mum at the centre to make Ava’s spot even more magical. Isn’t it lovely?
And Missa Jema saying goodbye to Ivy the day we left..
Lisa, Tracy, Gloria and everyone at YDCCC, I could never have known that day in 2003 when I walked through the door with Mason just what an impact we would have on one another. Thankyou for being part of our family and making us feel part of yours, you have helped us through some dark days and truly made a difference this past year.
S xx
I think it also says something about the family you are! The most warm and friendly people how could everyone at the kindy not love you all and hold something special in their hearts for you. Ava’s garden must be so beautiful and the seat is so pink :)
That seat sure yells out, LOOK AT ME!! It is truly beautiful. It is nothing like I imagined it would be, but everything like it should be. x
These pictures are so special and beautiful. I’m speechless………….
We’ve been overwhelmed with support for my Mom. And it is amazing how much it means… how just a few kind words or a small act can lift you enough to take another step forward.
that photo of ava on the bottom is just so beautiful it could make me cry.
shows how special your family is that a school would love you guys so so much!
thanks for sharing your life and ava’s here. i really love to read about her and feel like i know her. and she has changed my life in so many ways.
thank you.
tara
I’m crying, crying, crying from that photo of Ava. How gorgeous she is. Kindy seems like a very special place – it is wonderful that they have such touching tributes to Ava.
jbxo
that seat is just too special for words, love it
Shayne
sheye,
i have been trying to figure out how to write those first moments down… the first moments when the ambulance was there and they were trying to revive aaron. my sister bought me a little journal to try to write some feelings down in… i am still trying to build up the courage to write down what went on that day and my feelings about it. i know it will be therapeutic… typing in my blog at all has been therapeutic… how did you find the strength so early to write down what happened that devastating day? i want to, but when i think about reliving that day in words… it breaks me.
your tributes to ava are so beautiful. thank you. you are inspiring.
love always, leslie *
What a beautiful way to honour Ava, it’s so pink!!!
It’s so fitting that you posted this today, as one of the girls from Ava’s kindy came in today to the shop to try an Ava cupcake (unfortunately they were all sold out!!!!), I didn’t catch her name – she said she was the director. She said to say hi!
That photo of Ava is so lovely, she looks just so happy! craig commented on how much she looks like the boys too. xx