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Big Steps.

Such a rushed morning.
Nothing like I’d wanted.
Special things being hurridly packed.
No quiet reflection.
Driving away too quickly.
Not enough photographs.
Her Daddy looks broken.

But we are here. It’s strange and new and hopeful. The boys are so happy. We are the other side of the impossible and we are planning pretty things in honour of Ava. As always, one breath, one step, at a time.

I want to say thankyou, truly, for all your support over these past weeks. I always feel so bad that I can’t acknowledge all the emails I get…It’s a hard thing that when I’m my lowest, I get so much support and then can’t gather myself enough to respond to everyone. I’m sorry. Please know, it means so so much to all of us.

1. Alinta says:

   Sheye – Once again i dont quite know the ‘right’ words to say, but just wanted to tell you how brave i think you are – even though you may not feel it. You and your family have been in my thoughts for the last few weeks, as you have taken this big step and will be in my thoughts over the coming week. Ava is with you no matter where you live, im sure she is watching over you all. Thinking of you xox

   
2. Capture says:

   Sheye –
   You don’t ever have to apologize to anyone. We all know what a bittersweet time this is and how hard it must be to walk out that door. Well, we don’t really know…really can’t possibly know, but you and your family are carried every day in the hearts of those of us around the world. I still pray for you all every night and I still get tears when I read your posts. You are such an inspiration to me and I thank you so much for sharing your pictures and your words. We have all fallen in love with Ava and because of that she will never ever be forgotten. I wish you tiny bits of sparkle today Sheye.

   
3. Tanya says:

   Oh Sheye these photos & words bring tears to my eyes! Ava will always be with you… be it on the Coast, Brisbane or anyway this life takes you, Ava will always be there. Sheye I wish you & your family every happiness… xxxx

   
4. clinka says:

   we are all out here, reading your words, and following your life in a way. i’m sure i’m not the only one who has waited patiently since ivy’s birthday post… knowing that the move was coming, and the mix of emotions you would be going through… hoping to hear that it is all okay. your photos express so much emotion. pure joy and utter bliss on ivy’s face in her princess dress, and the solemn stance of your husband during the move.

   i assume that many of us don’t “know” you, have never met you, but you must know that we are all out here, rooting for you, and sending you hugs, prayers, and thanking you for the inspiration. your photos and words just make my heart fill up…

   thank you.
   jbxo

   
5. clinka says:

   as an aside, my husband has insisted i let you know about a musician we think you would really enjoy from canada called: Great Lake Swimmers

   we both think you’ll like it.
   hope you do.
   jbxo

   
6. Sussanah says:

   hope you both get some time now to just breathe

   x

   
7. Sheye says:

   Oooh Clinka, had a look on YouTube and LOVE them!! Thankyou so much!! Off to purchase some music…
   THANKYOU!

   
8. precious pink pumps says:

   You have accomplished so much. I have to say looking at those pictures took my breath away. I can only imagine how hard this has been for you all. Big love xxx

   
9. s u v i says:

   I found your blog yesterday, and read it all day while I was working. I cried while reading. I’m so truly sorry for your lost! I can’t imagine, how awful you must feel. I have a daughter, she’s almost 3 years old and the idea of something happening to her is so terrible. I have to say, that no matter what, you’re a very brave, loving woman and a mother. All my best wishes to you and your family!

   Beautiful pictures! Love every single one of them :)

   
10. Liz says:

    I’ve been reading your blog for a while now, following your daily fight for survival. My heart hurts for you, but I am also in awe of your immense capacity to love. Your loss has been my wake-up call. I am a kinder, gentler, more patient person to my little boys after I read your blog. You should know that. You help me.

    I also love your photography. I am an avid picture-taker. I don’t feel comfortable calling myself a photographer because I don’t know all the photography terminology and I only use a point-and-shoot digital camera. But my dream is to have a digital SLR someday, take a class on photography, and make a living turning people’s lives into art on photo paper. I just have one question for you and I understand if you don’t have a chance to answer. What kind of camera do you shoot with?

    Best of luck with your new house. I’m sure you’ll have a great time decorating. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

    
11. Kaz says:

    Great to hear the boys are so happy Thinking of you loads Sheye xoxoxo

    
12. Kristy says:

    Thank you Sheye. You always make me stop,think and appreciate. xxx

    
13. Sara says:

    Sheye,

    I am so glad you are safe and sound in your new home. You’re right, one step at a time. Do only what you are able to.

    Have a very Merry Christmas!

    Sara

    
14. pakosta says:

    Sheye—
    thinking of you always.
    and of your darling ava.
    i can’t and wont’ ever forget her.
    thank you so much for all you share, and don’t EVER apologize for not being able to respond….we wouldn’t even ever expect you to.
    God bless you and may you feel some peace this Christmas season.
    tara