Eeeni Weeni Bikini
..that she wore for the first time today.
Believe it or not, Ivy has not been in our pool until this week. Before February Crayte was always busy taking Ava around the pool and Ivy didn’t know enough to pest to go in..After February, well..we just haven’t been swimming a great deal and seeing as we only have weeks left in this house, we decided it was time she should. So her with new (still too big) bikini and me with camera, we ventured down.
It seems such a simple thing, taking your child for a swim, but to us in our New Universe..it is so much more. It was so hard to see Ivy toddle down that path to the pool, to her Dad..into his arms. Splashing and playing and loving it – she would have no idea just how heavy our hearts felt or the enormity of the missing and the remembering and the wishing.
We never want Ivy to miss out, we want her to have the life she would have had with her sister but it’s such an enormous task..every single day… to just find moments of absolute joy and not think of what would have been.
She should be here.
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she is there… every moment of everyday… watching Ivy grow and helping you to heal. I trust that she is… I trust with all my heart that God allows her to watch over…
these images are beautiful… it’s so breathtaking when you really think about what you have been able to capture here. Isn’t photography just amazing? I thank God everyday that we have cameras. How amazing it is to take a precious life moment and keep it still in a photograph. Thank you for sharing Sheye… your work and your words inspire me. I hope that God allows me to bear children one day… and that I capture their life moments half as well as you have captured your children.
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Oh Sheye. I have tears for you guys at this moment ~ you are so right….. she should be there. Whilst I believe she is in her own way, I know it’s not what you want or need. I still, daily, think of how wrong all of this is.
Ivy is just so adorable ~ big or not, that bikini is GORGEOUS!!! Kiss her for me please.
Sending you so much love as always.
xx
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She is there . Maybe not the way you would like her to be. But she’s there looking after her baby sister and you and her dad and brothers.
The second picture is just precious!
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Tears are streaming down my face Sheye. I have no words. The only thing I can offer is prayers for you. For Cratyon. For Luca, Mason, and Ivy. …and for Ava. For that beautiful Ava of yours who has nestled into all of our hearts. You are in my thoughts daily Sheye. I hope that brings some sort of comfort.
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Miss Ivish has that cheeky smile that makes you want to eat her all up. Love that she went swimming with her Daddy. xxx
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Oh Lord I love the 2nd shot of her its adorable..ready Daddy ,Here I come
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You are a very brave woman,who is facing the unthinkable. Every time i visit your site,I leave with tears streaming down my face – not only because of your experience and the way you explain it so perfectly but also because of your divine photos that really do tell a million stories. Your Ava has touched so many that never even met her. i treasure my children more because of her. xx
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Bittersweet does not even come close…
I’m glad you did it and thank you for sharing darling Ivy with us. I’m glad she had such a wonder-full time and I only wish that you could experience it as pure unthinking joy just like she did. Maybe Ivy is your sweetness to temper the bitterness of loss.
love always
Sue J
xxxxx
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It’s really amazing what love and happiness (you may not feel right using the word, but I see glimpses of it in these moments) you are continuing to have now, and that is such a testament to how much you love Ava, and how much she is surrounding and watching over you all.
I have no doubt that your children will all grow up knowing a complete & happy childhood.
Amazing that no matter how broken your soul feels, it still keeps on keeping on. These are beautiful. xx
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I don’t have anything profound or comforting to offer, except that your words and especially your photos are beautiful. And it is evident that you giving Ivy a happy childhood.
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What joy on Ivy’s face. I’m sure Ava loved seeing that! I so wish she was here too.
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there is something so special in ivish and ava’s eyes… i can’t describe it. it is like pure joy and beauty. the moments you capture in each photo are the moments that make it all worthwhile. you and ava have touched so many lives, on such a personal level, all over the world. not a day goes by that i don’t think of her and you and your family. ava lives on in so many hearts and minds. so very loved. surely she must be smiling.
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Sheye, I don’t know you but my heart aches for you and your family and what you must go through. How like Ava your beautiful little Ivy is. That must be so bittersweet.
I keep you and your family in my prayers.
Zoe
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if i ever lose a child like you have, i want to be as strong as you are holding up the fort. your family is always in my thoughts every single day.
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sheye, your strength and honesty is like no other. with each and every post you inspire me more and more. there isn’t a single day that i don’t think about you. as a mama, my heart truly hurts for your loss. i can’t begin to imagine what it must be like day to day -that is where your strenth lies.
i trust and pray that you too believe in reunions in heaven, it will be joyous!
tara (maryland, USA)
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Ivy and Maddy occupy a place in this world that is full of ‘should be’s’ and how nice to see that despite our pain we still manage to enable our girls those moments.
It’s weird because it is these painful moments that also remind us of why we get up in the morning and yet why we wish we didn’t have to.
She look’s so pretty having fun.
Belle and Ava would be smiling down on them and watching their every step.
Love Dxxxx
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What a precious little thing she is! She looks adorable having so much fun in the pool. What a little treasure! I’m sure whenever Ivy is having fun, Ava is never far away :) x
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you’ve captured the moments beautifully.
((HUGS))
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Wow! What a bittersweet day for you and Crayton… Just looking at little Ivy’s face full of joy brings a smile to your face :o) Then you think of Ava and your heart kind of flips and you think that the two sisters should have been enjoying that joyful moment together :o(
As always my heart goes out to you and to Crayton…
Try and keep that joyful image of Ivy in your mind to realise why you are still here and that you still have so much love to give and that you are so special to SO many people…
Jodie xxx
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I just love a little bum in a kini, is that a very unPC thing to say? Anyhow well I do, and hers is beyootiful!
it’s a little happy for my cup.
x
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how sad that all of Ivy’s special moments will so often be bittersweet for you and Crayton. I guess it’s just a part of your life though – and it is what it is. I’m so sorry for your pain Sheye…and that all of these moments have to be so difficult. Always thinking of you all,
laureen
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How perfectly you’ve worded the need to enjoy life without forgetting Ava. How glorious Ivish looks in her bikini, that skinny little bottom – no longer a chubby bubby! She is so glorious, reminiscent of the Super Princess but so like her big brothers.
I hope the last few weeks in your home aren’t too difficult. Much Love, Mandy, Leilani & Kaiesha xxx
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hi, you dont know me, but i was so touched by your blog. your children are so beautiful. i too have a daughter of 3 and a half. it touched my heart to read the beautiful things u wrote…it made me take a step back and realize the importance of every moment of every day i have with my girls.you are an inspiration to me…thankyou
daniell
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these are precious. i’m sure that the grown up ava would want you to enjoy every moment. i esp love the second picture, her adorable little bum. her sister is so proud of her, i’m quite sure!
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